ThiNk BiG...

Run away ...

2010-09-22T09:51:00.000-07:00

'Luckily screwed'

Found its interesting when I simply joined 2 words - 'Lucky' + 'Screwed'

Bad Luck and Luck hits together. Screwed up big time and it says - 'Luckily Screwed..'

Not more than 2 days it took me to realize 'run-away from life...'

I wish if some alien comes and saves me from this stupid world.. Being a human is one stupid reason for the idea behind Run-Away.
Drastic changes for me too, but the soul inside wants to be a kid, wishes to be a kid, longing to be a kid....

Somewhere in the middle our life, we find a couple of people to whom we are we and we call them friends..
Somewhere in the middle of our life, we realize they are the best part of our life.
Somewhere in the middle of our life, we find them a best place in our life..
Somewhere in the middle of our life, they became our life..
Somewhere in the middle of our life, we loose them..
Somewhere in the middle of our life, we find we are nothing without them...

I received a message from one of my close friends today. A msg to reach after 6/8 months.
A single line msg- A single word msg. 'Sukamanodoi'.

Excited to see her name on that tiny box.

No world could be better without a circle of friends...
No life could be better than college-life...
No one could be better than friends...

Highly screwed up after college.. The life could be no more beautiful.. No more fun with friends, no more silly fights, no more struggling for shared food.... The 'No more' is having a sudden effect. Everything is NO. Everywhere it is NO.

Wish if I could Run-Away....

Good year 2010!

2010-01-05T14:01:00.000-08:00

Another year has come! Say cheese!
And I wished my friends all good luck:

'May god showers you more pesky friends this year' ( lol.. Mr. Annoyer from my workplace.. He thinks I'm good at annoying ppl and so I named him.. doh! )

'May god showers you more Rakhi-s this year' (My class chick! Back to class hours.. Was a great pleasure teasing her especially when it was a strict class... Strict class in the sense, we were not supposed to talk, make fun, play tricks, pass chits, feed snacks, switch seats, pencil sketch, do assignments... The strict class wanted us listen to those splendid fantabulous words that were flowing out from the stuffed cave.. Phew! She shouldn't have laughed when the lecturer was wearing down the feeling in us (as if he was guiding the most beautiful lessons of life ).. I wouldn't have thrown out of bench the very next minute which happened every 3 days a week tho' I hadn't any part in her expressing her mirth.. I was a poor soul and I could only turn back and smile at her.. I could only be a mother of innocence..lol)

'May god bless you and help you find more troubles this year..' (This one hasn’t reasons but his attitude says : 'Do not disturb me. Already disturbed!' Sigh )

'May god showers you more gfs this year' (To my so called lil bro.. I'm worried if he could manage so many buffs.. He’s already trapped!)

'May god showers you all good luck and a position where you can meet more gals..' (Another colleague. He feels sorry for he did fail to get into a gals bay.. lol..)

'Get lost '-- (That was another New year wish.. I couldn't help it!)

'May god Bless 'ME' '! (To a few friends...)

My first day 2010 turned so lazy! Sleeping all day long.. I could have done some absolute crap, but the laziness in me has already eaten me up and I was helpless as a child wanting to be at home when he/she is asked to spend his/her day at play school.. The beginning is not so great, in fact two of my colleagues left our workplace in first 5 days.. Sob sob! Another reason could be me struggling to get back to my best friend.. She left to her working place without even spending with me a single day.. My laziness was again a reason.. I'm worried if murdering one crazy stuff is so easy if exercising laziness is an automatic event.. Got up at 3 AM in the morning, sleepless soul needing a reason for a natural state of rest causing the conscious mind freeeeze.. I'd love to explain the reason to myself, but lack of reasoning power is another major reason..
I wanted to mark everyday rich.. But my laziness has buried everything..

Patching up!

2009-11-25T08:31:00.001-08:00

I actually couldn’t even admit a single day without my 'Net' .. Been my friend since school days, it has become one major life component now...Still couldn’t believe I've stamped down all these days without my best time killer.. I was starting to love the past days before television.One dumbo ass as I named it long before.. Not anymore..At one point, I had to consider that Idiot Box... God is emphatically teaching me how to live.. I'm lazy! Can't learn more...Sorry-ji ! :-O

Investigated 6 independent inquiries, peeped into mind…

How to start a reading 'habit' ?

When I said habit, I meant the word as it is.. I want it to acquire through frequent repetitions a day or I want my life reason-Books. Finished a book in a week.. :D Taking an hour a day.. lol..Anybody can finish it in a day.. Far too better or .....? Let it be for my jeez... ! :D :D :D

How well a blogger should be ?

Can’t indulge in writing metaphorical language. I don’t admit my writing skill part. Tho’ I like them when they say they like the way I express the words. Oh well, Thanks to ‘Mr’. Anonymous for sparing his time in here.. Good to see I’ve regular readers and Yes, obviously I’m inspired! ;-)

In which state of unreal world should I live in?

Present so is the same as for the real world... If in that case, Should I bother about my Future? No .. Yes! The priority being No.. Exploring…(‘Explore it’ as our trainers say.. :-D )

What exactly is telepathy?

Is it just a literal word as seen in writings or it has a secure unfeigned role in life? Lets see what.. lolz..

Why couldn’t I start thinking about a short story? ( ! )

Mr. Director’s inspiration! I remember him asking me for a short film.. He thinks I can make it.. Such demands will be taken into account , BUT … only if I find a gift parceled by GOD. Not otherwise .. Sigh!

A sequence of events at my work place.

Mr. Weird is study’ing’ (or analyz’ing’ : ‘ing’ since the status continues… ) me.. Accessing the behavioral attributes he can read out from my doings .. Weird I must say…The conclusions share contradiction …

His assumptions say :

" You ( or Me ), either an ‘Interesting’ character or a ‘Complete Fake’ ! "

Sigh! How else it could be..? Easily said: ‘Either Yes or No’..

Anyhow , his conclusion says the other way:

' This is your basic nature! '

The base R! Happily quitted! Thanks to Mr. Weird for he did take the cookies! Lol…

Time Utilization : Before and After Status !

*A table definition would be a bit odd as one of my friends suggested.. So deleting the struct part..lol...*

Loved the ‘After’ state anyway..

Life could have been better if I get to hear the sigh of wind in ambiance… My windows are open and I’m ready to fade away in nature… A mind so intelligent, so innovational, so real..

God is listening... Get me the wings..I wanna fly...
I was destined to be God’s favorite, and I did the best I could do…
Still doing my best with every possible gifted qualities I’ve..
But, life is totally unlikely without an Inter-Net...
Back to ‘Before’ state.. I’m into my own world of Seeking-Nothing-In-Particular.. Yay! Happy again.. :-D

A Bill of Divorcement !

2009-09-22T08:20:00.000-07:00

It says Marriages are made in heaven and sanctified on earth . . Pardon Me God, I'm redefining it for the sake of describing one funny incident happened today. .

This was my message to a friend during lunch break . .

I, R*** ( W/O Mr. X*** , married since XXXX **, &&&& ) hereby declaring my divorce notice . . The real reason behind this decision is the insincere nature of my **** . . He's been after many gals even though he's got a wonderful caring wife . . :) But, because of certain hidden reasons, I'm inactivating this notice for the time being . . So, kindly take this as a warning and put an eye on my **** so that he'll give me enough care and I'll get his attention leading to a happy and prospering life . . .~rz

Mr.X*** wanted me to hide his name for the sake of his peace . . lol . . I've taken the power of settling things . . Yay! Its because I got one such **** in the College Family Tree . .(Another absolute crap as I've no clue how he became my **** in tree) lol . . I'm glad things are turning around for me . . '****' since the word 'husband' is one meaningful word and I prefer not to use it here and there for describing 'some' silly characters in life. .

Relishing the days at new place . . Missing college friends and classes tho' . . I learn new things from here unlike in college days where the mere intention going college was the attendance . . I had a habit of imagining studies visually, and that happened only in dreams . . My intentions changed once I joined my first job . . Well this wasn't a change in plan but a change of mode . . Switching from the mode of leisurely woman to a fast learner in demand . . Learning learning and more learning . . .

The Cutting Edge !

2009-08-27T03:08:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION dear friend: This is to inform you the latest updates about your friend.. Your Er. Friend is going to be an employee from this Monday.. The company she's going to work for is COLLABERA as SAP trainee.. Will be trained for the position,'SAP Consultant' in 6 months.. Well, I hope that is a GOOD news for you too...;-) :-):-)

This was the message to all my friends. Some laughed at, some incited pity and some others congratulated and conveyed their felicity...Its been 3 days since I joined.. Met up with an old tuition-mate of mine..She smiles at every single thing I say and I love people who smile.. :) When it is about friends, one would always appreciate adding more in a list of many and I'm not an exception.. She is my new friend, new colleague, new companion....

I had in my dreams about a work where I fly from one place to another, speaking out to the super-ordinates of a company in a prissy room..Well, that is in brief ...

I'm flying with my colleagues to a city where flowers blossom more often but are unnoticed .. The place where the crowd spills over on the street.. The heavy traffic lines are overloaded in the city everywhere... One from my team ensures the things going around, another busy reading stuffs, another one with the phone calls, another one with his at most stubborn posture..And myself wistfully looking through the window,running in mind as many things as I could.. Everybody plays a compeer role there.. We are halfway down the destiny..A remote possibility of reaching the place in time ... Situations passes by and now we are heeding to the company.. A warm welcome .. The usual way of conveying the invited guests.. Some of them are Indians and some others aliens, as I would call them...

We are in a well coiffed room.. Everybody seated themselves in the appropriate place so that they get the perfect picturing of the scenic design.. A man who buried himself in his best suit is now going to give us a formal greet.. He carries himself in a decent manner with a pleasing sensation.. He starts verbalizing and it occupied a short time.. And now, its our turn..We're introduced to the officials of their company and we are starting our work...(Last part isn't clear.....)

Everything was so quick and evening in room.. In a state of prospering.. Palmy and Thriving...!

Now, Dream becoming the Reality... The Cutting Edge !

Surreal.. but nice !

2009-08-06T13:29:00.000-07:00

I want a world were anything is possible...!

What I want to be... ? was left to me...

Choices were actually minuscule..
I picked one, But went wrong..

I see myself as a failure !
Believe me, I'm going to fail just 100%...
A striker striking within its reach,but failing to put a coin in the pocket..
Don't tell me ,it doesn't matter..
Because I know, it DOES !

This is not the time for incidence
This is not the time for empathize

I must complain with the weakest possible reason I could have....
I'm unsure, but something hiding me..
Perhaps, I'm less confident about myself..
I'm lazy, I couldn't make it... What shall I do now?
I thought I'm old enough to take my own decisions..
I thought there is no harm to be myself..
Did you see the difference?
Oh well,Its all about a lonely person in the world....
I doubt if its me....
No, I've everybody..

They asked :

Good bowler / Bad bowler ?

Unsure! I picked Good . But it turned Bad...

I'm a traveler who is gonna discover the world..
Looking for the day which is going to change my life...
If I was given a chance ,I'd change the world upside down..

Surreal.. but nice!
Well, what was I thinking about? Is it about changing the world?
I'm dreaming then..
In dreams, I'd change the entire world rather than my personality..
Because you can always do that in your dreams...
Sleep with a dream and wake up with reality ..
Because there is nothing that rhymes in life ...
I fancy it... Surreal ,but nice!

I wanted to see you smile..
But, nobody wished for mine..
I've got nothing to smile about !
Still I smiled, but nobody noticed..

Combination of factors spilled it out :

No clean clothes
No regular food
No real friends
No entertaining fun

Somebody been badly influenced...
Everything Unfit..
Everything for a reason it says :
Get me the reason, I'll be excused !

Unsuccessfully Professional !

A fairly strange reality to face with..
Its a No-Win situation..I dint realize before..
I couldn't hear the spiritual vibrations anymore....

Fortune....

2009-08-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

My fortune teller says :

"Everyone is gifted - but some people never open their package"

Searching for my gift.....
.
Can't find any.....
.
Mission failed....
.
Query : Will I get a new one?
Reason : Because that I've missed my old...
Response : Gift once lost is lost forever !

Scripting failed . . . .

Write up...

2009-08-04T07:48:00.000-07:00

Narrating a story . . .

11th grade Math tuition : The journey begins ... I dint notice this tuition-mate of mine since the huge class and she wasn't in the circle of my world which was confined to the first 2 benches...

12th grade Math tuition : My neighbor introduced her best friend to me ... A cute gal I murmured ... Started noticing her from that day on .. Smiling friends as I would define it... A thought struck my mind : Keep Smiling n' she smiled ... :)

X'mas day celebration at my neighbor's home : I can at this moment see her awaiting for a quick and easy friendship .. From there own, Hi-Bye friends as we called it... :)

First year second day at college bus stop : We shared a Happy Smile! She is already my friend .. Now,I got a good companion too... :)

During the mid S12 : Many started echoing : 'Appu and Rakhi are best friends.' But, we dint actually know we were ... ;)

Second year college : We realized how good friends we are and started the real move...

Third year college : I shifted my home to a new one .. Wow, my heart can only take so much. . My mind echoed her name .. I'm her neigbour now .. For once in my life I realized I've someone who needs me and I want that someone to be in my life song ... She promised, she will .. She was with me when i missed my mind and kept her words ... I got someone I needed so long .. Yay!

We made a long commitment after college :

"Be friends"... "But we are friends."
No, We meant to BE friends ...

"If you ever need a hand, I'm here ..." - That was a promise we made in heart !

A journey at its best ...

A Warm Shake-hand !

2009-07-01T22:54:00.000-07:00

Its says : Friendship is a promise made in heart !

. . . If you ever need a Hand, I am here . . .
. . . A promise Unbroken . . .

Cheers to all my friends for those lovely moments together!

BSNL Bad !

2009-06-28T05:57:00.000-07:00

I messaged . . .

"Msg 1 : Hereafter, following the message sequencing method to ensure the acknowledgement :D so that the receiver could find the innocence of the sender who is being accused for not sending(replying to) the messages. . .:) :) "

I tried to send the same message thrice,but failed!
My good luck . . It worked after 10 hours- from the night to the next morning ! sigh

I waited for another half an hour to get a reply and here it is . . .

"Well, I think this new method of sequencing would be effective. .You may as you plz follow this method from today. . Cheers ! "

lol...I was happy! I found a new method. . Yay!

Well well...I'm following this new method from today morning.. But, not even a single message is getting delivered! If only it's been sent,one could make sure of my sequencing. .
Bsnl Bad again... :(

Sob sob! Somebody get me a new Network which can't be distracted by any other means!

I want an ' obedient ' Network which works just for a single person and that's ME . . See, how lovely it would be. . . ;) What if there exists a Remote Controlled Wireless Network (abbreviated as RCWN :D )! Whenever I wish for the network service , it's all DONE ! My destination is only a single click away! All others should have to wait for my permission to use this privately accessed network which I never do. . lol . . The possibilities are endless! Lets hope for one such system in Mobile Service!

But, RCWN has to be named after me for I suggested this possibility! But, unfortunately My name doesn't seem scientific ! :( It could have been Rachle / Rakshel / Rikshel or something . . Sigh! But, I love Malayalam . . Rachle / Rakshel / Rikshel could never be a Malayalee name . . . sad again. . .:(

Ambitions

2009-06-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

Listing out my ambitions from the age of 9 -

Age- 9 , 4th Grade :
I wanted to become an IAS officer.

Since my mom's greatest wish !

Age-10, 5th Grade :
I decided...I'm the future Doctor.

For God's sake, I can never be a Doctor! I'd have been the same as above otherwise!

Age-13, 8th Grade :
Had enough of learning BIOLOGY! I hated the subject even before I go in depth!
Heard from my seniors about them experimenting the frogs, cockroaches etc..Argh!

Age-14, 9th Grade :
I'm a Teacher! Finalized ! Just because I fell in love with a teacher of mine, I wanted to be like her ...Realized better I not a teacher! lol...

Age-15, 10th Grade :
All I wanted is to get a pass mark . The first Board Examination in life!
I passed it! God's grace!:)

Age-16, 11th Grade :
I wanted to become a Psychiatrist! Because I love to read people's mind and wanted to find the reason behind the mad whirl of pleasure!

Unfortunately,none at home encouraged this idea! Can't blame them! A completely mad Psychiatrist aint valued. .

Age-17, 12th Grade :
I'd write the entrance and would get through . .

I'm the next Engineer. .

Age-18, 1st year Engineering :
I was liking to take Comp Sci & Eng. . I was told about the high salary and IT - The next generation sector . . .

Age-19 , 2nd year Engineering :
Wished for nothing! I just wanted to enjoy my college life . . .

La la laa.....

Age-20, 3rd year , The pre-final year :
Wanted to become something in life . But, was unsure about ' What? '--
Nothing wondering! Still the same situation.... :(

Age-21, Final year Engineering :
I'll be a lovely wife! Wanted to sit idle,doing nothing at all but running a wonderful family!

Now in the state of dilemma . . .
CAT ? Job ? Family ? Absolutely No Idea it is . . .

The Rarest of the Rare!

2009-06-25T08:03:00.000-07:00

My eyes literally pinned to my books! I bet its an academic book! Neither magazine nor story book! Hard to find one such ikon! Keeping this remembrance as my personal favorite!

I never knew when this pic was taken!Cheers to my friends!
Me chained to books - that happens once in blue moon almost never happens !Remembering the day before final exam,S8 . Puzzling out one hardest topic! Nah, I gave up! Can't strain my eyes to learn something!lol...

Unhinged !

2009-06-19T19:13:00.000-07:00

Crazy - Crazier - The Craziest !

One another reason why the people are totally unsound !
I found in one of my friend's album a pic and certain descriptions! I stood in stunned silence for a min or more. . . I wish if the monitor I'm sitting before was not mine. . I 'd have crunched it into bits otherwise. . .

"d smile which i loved d most during ma school days.. met as a stranger smewer on my way .. then vanished smewer away in dis busy lyf n again got to see long after.. neva realised wen was near.. bt realised wen went far... d smile which i dreamt many times in b/w.. d smile whch left a smile on ma face wen i think of !! ppl may name it mad.. but i wud say its a wish.. a silent wish.. a sweet wish.. alwayz !! " :) ~ Crazy...

I'm losing my temper! How should I respond to such crackbrained stuffs? I mostly dislike to be a display of bad temper! Silent wish n' crap! Get lost!

Lol...actually I've penned lots about a silent wish of mine . . But those imaginary words are really amusing when twisted to reality. . I realized! Let them remain the mental imagery and creativity and not the reality. . lol. .

Today's Fortune :

2009-06-18T20:13:00.000-07:00

Today's Fortune :

The world is a tragedy to those who feel, but a comedy to those who think . . .

So ThiNk BiG!

As my blog heading suggests!
Not everyone can Think Big! If you think big, you' get Big!
One need to be tactful enough to falsify his/her illusion !

Human is a master of an illusory feat !
He creates a world of illusions . .
He lives in the world of illusions . .
What he thinks is right to him . .
What he does is right to him . .
Man has magical power . .
He can effectuate his illusions into practice . .
His eyes have the quality of spirit to make him crazy . .
No man is perfect unless otherwise he's an insane!

So,does the illusions make man perfect?
No wonder people call me crazy . .
See, I'm not crazy ,I'm just crazier. .

Boldness

2009-06-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

Conversation with a friend of mine:

Venue :College Tea stall
Time : around 2pm after the final University Exam!
Members : 6 of us - the final year students

Guys busy with gossiping !
And the gals heeding them !

He might have noticed me bored with those false rumors !
Ah well, an exceptional case it is ,as the gals hardly feel bored while gossiping!
He started a conversation with me . . An artificial way of starting a conversation with a fellow being . . His words were so clear . .

He : So what is your next plan after college?
Me : I've no clue . .
He : You should have been certain about it. .
Me : Must be . .
He :( some blah blahs as i don't remember the words and finally he ended up with a statement. .) Gals should be bold enough . .
Me : Well, If ya asking me for it, I might say I've enough boldness!
He : So ,how would you define boldness?
Me(quiet for a while) : You need a formal definition for everything, huh?
He : Of course, do. . as everyone has their own definition for every single thing !

The right way of convincing reason!
But,I felt more bored ! Moreover, I can't stand with such formal chats whoever the other side is . . Digging up the reason for the Invention of Definitions . . . I Quit ! lol . . .

Today's fortune:

2009-06-13T19:31:00.000-07:00

Fortune:

"Fools and fanatics are always certain of themselves, but wiser people are full of doubts . . ."

That was my Orkut fortune.I'm neither confused nor free from doubts! Which says I'm very normal! lol . . .

Normals never think weird . .
Wondering how could I be one among them?
Weird . . .

Good bye SCT

2009-06-12T10:28:00.000-07:00

Huh..
Today(12.06.09).
The last day at My College-Sree Chitra Thirunal College of Engineering.
The first day being August 10,2005.

My phone beeped . .The sender name on its top. Realized! A classmate of mine:

"Oh, I don't have a clue what am I gonna do tomorrow! I'm gonna miss my college friends..I'm sad..Not in a right mood...:("

Most of everyone must be feeling the same and I replied :

"Gonna miss college friends? I see hardly any chance. . Must be missing college . .Get engaged in something . It's a part of life. Life is Simple,it's just not easy. . You make a choice and never turn back. . Once we had those wonderful school days to cherish and now college days too. . The memories left behind. The life has just started and the youth has blossomed into maturity ;) New Fun, New life, New people . . .Be happy for the New things happening! FRIENDS can never be past . They are our present. Life is stepping upwards.We're gonna get more friends. . I'm excited ! "

Now SCT in dreamzz . . .

Happily saying Good Bye SCT...

4 years of College life- A flash back

2009-05-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

hmm...

Now that it comes to an end,its time for me to blog it here! College life is nearing its end. . Hereafter No silly jokes in the middle of class, No bunking class hours, No stupid fights, No more sharing of food during lunch break, No teasing with nicknames .... and all other blahs you could count as a part of college life! This what my friends say! But, I tell you what, to a certain extend it's right...but not as it is...

We've reached the turning point!

Well well . . I started with the flashback thingy! Coming to it . .

Was going through my Picasa for the college photos I've in my system...

Aw yeah! I'm trying to sort it out! Here it is after the Selection-Collage process!

Starting with the Freshers Day celebration...

The first event been held by my class! Yeah! Somehow, it turned out to be a big success as our Principal Mr.Mahadevan Pillai mentioned in his speech.The first freshers day which had a technical touch with LCD display screens welcoming the freshers and in meanwhile we've put some entertaining channel for them during their lunch.. He said its 'Creativity' as none of our seniors had thought of such ideas . . Seniors well have taken part and danced with the juniors and the function has turned out to be a mixed party of Juniors and Seniors! The best Freshers Day party in the history of Comp Sci dept,SCTCE as Karthik chettan(our senior) has mentioned towards the end!Lucky JuNiors to have us-their SeNiors!

Now again what creeps into mind is the SKIT we've performed in our S3..lol...The theme: Kerala University Valuation Center! :D As if we knew how the things happening inside...lol.. Anyway,we had so lotta fun during this trial of us! A combined effort could be a Grand Success and too this Hellua fun it was! College days are simply wonderful :) No turning backs! :)

The next step is Raagam'08-

One another unique experience with the seniors, juniors and friends!Yay! SCT won the overall trophy of Raagam'o8! Great to be a part of sucha big success! My team won First for Rangoli (WE created the design .A totally different theme conveying a message- FROM THE DEPTH OF NIGHT,WE SWIM TOWARDS THE LIGHT! Innovative one might say! Cheers Gowri for the caption! Cheers to us since we've put up a sum of 25 points to SCT !

Onam'08 and Onam'09!This ,the same every year except that we are a year older than the previous... The very same 'pulikalies', 'chenda madhalam', 'onasadya', 'athapookalam' 'padakams','vadamvali' and lots . . . It was SCT who taught me how should an Onam celeberation be. . Aw no! I'm gonna miss the next Onam with no SCT friends around. . .

But I don't agree with! Regretting over the past! Past is Past! They won't be back again. . .

'Will those days ever come back? Can Impossible become Possible this time ?At least I wish if it could when it comes about college life!'

The fun days were those IV days we had together which taught us how to be with different mortals when you're not with your family ! 10 days trip . .

Hyderabad-Goa-Bangalore!

Day 1- At Hyderabad !

Day 9- Goa

Day 4- Bangalore

Day 3-Ramoji Film City

Huh,College Days are simply endearing....:)

aTtiTudE / ATTITUDE / AttItUdE

2009-04-17T08:19:00.000-07:00

aTTiTuDe it is...

They have a reason for everything! They say its ATTITUDE! :O

Of all the existing ones, being Arrogant is the latest one! Both starts with the same 'A' ! Aww! Spells good! ;)

The World of Fashion and Beauty must be redefined! Or Attitude redefined? lol...

Here goes a best count for this re-definition!

A new friend of mine! He says he loves me!

Oops! No! He likes me .. lol

And guess what! He is a Man of Arrogance I must say!

But somebody says :

Man is much smaller than you,

He has Arrogance ,Karma and Maya.

Although he is smaller he has lot more Arrogance.

Because of his Arrogance he turns the world upside down .

He destroys his exalted life because of this Arrogance.

Only when the man understands that he's Arrogant will he become a Real Man!

Wowy! Wonderful it is!

And see this

"Man’s ignorance is only exceeded by man’s arrogance.” ~ J. D. Taylor

Right / Wrong? :|

Well,I must say, I go with the latter since its hard to see somebody being arrogant to one! They have a reason of their own! Because they're focused,they think :

I'm doing it because I am ME ! This is what Attitude is. . . but they call me Arrogant !

Now,you decide what it meant to be?

\/\/eddingbee!

2009-03-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

One evening,while I was running around the kitchen trying for something catchy to get stuffed in!

Mom: Mole,Think we'll start planning your marriage! What say?
Me : Oh sure mma! As if I'm ripening with age! Sigh!
Mom: Lemme know if you have any thoughts then!
Me: Now you're seeking for the idea behind self-annihilation!
Mom: But see, You're expected to start thinking for yourself!
Me: Amma,you're trying to set me on the marriage market which I don't appreciate!
Mom: (wicked grin) tho' she looked innocent!

And here are some ideologies I visioned myself! First time thinking about and no wonder it wouldn't be smart as a whip! I enjoy the freedom of only concerning myself tho'.

Prayer to Lord:

If I get married,he should be the best I could do!

Theory behind:

Deep human need for Lasting Love , Care , Attention!

Wish

Unconditional love, a phenomenon that creates flexibility!

Conditions / Don't-s:

A perfect man in an imperfect world wouldn't be encouraged!
Shouldn't equate intelligent planning with a lack of trust or love!
Money shouldn't be listed as a cause of marriage!
I don't want a man to run my life,instead I need a steady companion!
I almost dislike self-centered ones,so shouldn't he!

Qualities / Do-s:

Respect is something to be earned and not to be demanded! Every single one on Earth is a wonder of God's creation! Should know how to respect each other!
My dis-qualities should be his qualities and the other way around!
Must be good at communicating with people! Well-mannered , easy-going , fun loving with a pleasant smile pasted on face : these can be added to the trait list.
3 P's in HIS Practical skills: HIS Plan,HIS Pleasure,HIS Purpose!

Will be adding more... :)

Ebullient......

2009-03-08T11:52:00.000-07:00

I'm so splendidly Elicited ,Cheerful, Bright and Upbeat !

Amazingly,I'm loving the way it furnishes the mind !

Loving the way it ornaments my Felicitous Life !

No more anxious edginess about the Happenings unlike ere !

Unreasonable n' Unexplainable blessedness within the self!

Despite having concerned suasions about other's remarks on ,

Fluttering round the silvered path ,

Sneaky eyes gleaming in inner bosom ,

Hearing the voice of murmuring breeze -

Am I wishing for a passing glance?

Aww No! It's a crazy dream about !

I wish if my words were bigger! lol.... ;)

Mail....

2009-03-06T18:22:00.000-08:00

Well...This is a mail I sent last day to a gang in my college.. The ****** is nothing but their gang name and I don't wish to put out here! It really hurts to see people around us being low bred and selfish ! One keeny I've mentioned here is a friend of mine!

Hi ******,

I know its ridiculous to send you a mail when I've had so many chances to talk to you in person.But it's really pathetic to see you (my 3 long years classmates) avoiding me in college! It really hurts even if its for a while! Big deal! I don't think I should be giving much grandness to it tho'! If you wish ,you may talk or else you don't! Can't understand why being like this if we have only a very few countable days together before us!

I thought I'd drop you a mail so that it's easy for you to pass this message to whoever you want thereby saving your time in copying and pasting stuffs!loll...(I know this wouldn't make you laugh..but did I ;) )

Somebody told me that I've hurt you some day..I can't explain since I thought you'd understand my situation! But unfortunately ,the things dint go well and you dint realize the way it is...And a big big SORRY if you still believe the reason for all these craps is me! Neither are we going to meet again after this college..Why going for such uneasiness then? Just wide open your eyes and See something! These are all baseless allegations! Friendship isn't that easy! Don't think it's easy to break the relations so easily! I hope in some day or later you'll perceive the realness!

I wish these matters would never come again within us which will only help in hurting some or others feeling! I understood how much you were hurt from the day keeny chorified me and I suppose you females are still continuing! I've absolutely nothing to tell on it and go on if ya think that's the proper way of reacting to your so-called friend (at least once i were to my noesis! )!

This mail may seems to you a nonsensical one and may it be beyond any limits ! But I can't help it! I've been in this trouble since &&&&&& ! I haven't much ideas about your ****** ! So sending this to all my fellow players! Rest is up to you ! You decide what and how!

Regards
Me

hmm....well well.. "This was funny" my friend said! I loved the way she conveyed it!loll.. But it was distressing at times to see some of my former friends avoiding me! A Dance is a team work and it couldn't be a vaguely specified self interested concern! A fellow member's trouble must be the trouble of the whole! That should be the way it is...ah! Those females wouldn't empathize other's feeling! They just thinking about themselves,their problems,their hard work and all about them as if the whole world is rolling around them! ****** rules! lol...:-|
See folks,we're Grown-ups! But dont they seem like! ;)

I just recalled these words:

"Learn the habit of COMPROMISE...
Because its better to bend a little,
Than to break a lovely relationship!
Forgive quickly,Believe slowly,
LOVE truly & Laugh loudly!"

Yeah I'm learning to appreciate the elegance of COMPROMISE through my experience! :)I was right! But they were right as well ! Now what? Let's grasp and bump with a linguistic reason! loll...

Dishaa'09

2009-02-20T08:44:00.000-08:00

A Techno-Cultural Fest to be conducted by the Com

puter Science Department of Sree Chitra Thirunal College Of Engineering,Pappanamcode,Trivandrum at Nishagandi, Kanakakunnu on Saturday,28th February.

Lanscape, the eleven year old Computer Science association of S.C.T. College of Engineering presenting before you the technical extravaganza to build the cornerstones of engaging Entrepreneurship and Technology .But this time,we're coming back to our roots by setting this spectacular event up as a technical as well as the cultural convention building upon a tradition of exploration and innovation.

Why Dishaa?

Dishaa has always had a convergence of the best technical and cultural creativities over the years and is likely to be an integral part of it.
An inspirational and motivational event for the young engineers to build up their career to an eminent peak.
Aspiring to bring forth an event that would make you think new possibilities and in the end allow you to unwrap the hidden abilities in you to the most proficient computer enthusiast!
Unplugs yourself from the monotony of academics and Inspiring you to be an employer rather than an employee .
Feel the outstanding experience of being the most prominent enthusiast! Experience The world of Linux games,open movies and more....

Catch Gauarav Dagaonkar Live for the first time in Trivandrum on March 1st! Relive your 'COLLEGE DAYS'...

For those who think Music is Metal ,this is going to be a fantastic imagery for the Rock Music Lovers! The Stunners set to rock the stage for SOUL BURN !

Click , Relive and Witness the MaGic!

http://www.dishaa09.com/

Be there to bear witness the mojo on February 28th and March 1st at Kanakakunnu Palace Grounds & Nishagandhi...

Valentine's day it is!

2009-02-14T19:59:00.000-08:00

Noticed a mail from Editor bob in my inbox wishing me a Valentine's day!Well, I shouldn't be excited for this reason for I haven't any valentine this time too ! lol...:)
Not that I'm dismayed for not having one..I'm glad that I have a huge list of friends!But for the past couple of days,I've been feeling blue and depressed for no particular reason ! Horrible nights I should say ! ( Those in red italic are from Editor bob's and not mine.. lol.. )

He likes me!

He likes me not!

He likes me!

Make sure he DOES at least this time!

Or you gonna loose him !

bah! who cares! I've never even cared for biggie affairs!
Then why bother ?

So was the end exciting? Anything peculiar? Yeah! But the reason was in one way or other unlike and the one on other side used to be my admirer since my schooldays ! lol... I was sent a mail on the day and here it is....

"Hii ....i mean bye since i don't want to disturb u again. I'll shut this relation forever ! Its been a long time since this one way thingy ! I'm signing off forever ..All these years( might be 6+ ) i been thinking of u! Only u! And I realized i can never be your friend ! I tried to love many other ones,but I could only see u on them ..I thought what if u realize my love for you in my near future ...But this is far toooooooo long ..May be you are right !I've no idea! Anyhow, bye and lots of blessing! May God give you more good hearted one...."

And what does he mean? But I couldn't be confused about this guy ! Can't understand how guys could say all these things if they fail to make friendship with the so-called crap...lol

I replied...

" I still can't figure out what your 'love ' is! You said you loved me ,cared me and many craps! But I doubt if you're sick! Now it's a good decision and a valuable turn! Its good to know that you've realized the 'things' at least now!

By all odds, I don't appreciate such things! I rarely make friends with guys! I believe guys are 'this' ,'that ' and what all craps! And the decision you took (at least)now is really appreciable! But surprisingly, I'm astonished to see your message which contains something like ' STOPPED IT ONLY BY NOW'? I thought you'd have already long before! lol...blah! whateva! bye! "

A kinda ill-mannered reply ! But I'm helpless ,but happy for his new turn! Bye admirer!

Heck ! I'm sick!

2009-02-09T21:52:00.000-08:00

I'm sick of being sick! I'm sick with a cold ,runny nose,itchy eyes !
Achooooo! 'GOD BLESS ' as my friend says! I think God is busy blessing me today!Achoo! :D

I suppose my cold + allergy started working up! May be I should go to a doctor instead of sitting here and diagnosing myself! Yuk! But I hate having medicinal drugs! It can just help you in getting addicted to it!

My clock shows its 11 and my cell beeps! A message from a sweetie pie asking for my reason of absence in class!Huh, I realized something! There is at least somebody missing me in college! lol . . Sickness couldn't be the only reason why I bunked today! I simply love bunking classes ! ;) Or is it that I'm wanting to be at home for a slothful day? I love being home for no absolute reason! ;)

I cleaned my room today! Wowy! What is so wondrous in it is I have washed a tons of clothes I've been collecting for ages! There is just another pile of clothes I don't need to care about! May be I could finish of it in another 12 or more months! That doesn't mean I'm going to sacrifice all my clothes ! My mom certainly wishes to get a chance!Well. . I wish if she does! :D In any case,I've been very surprised by mine for I even intended to go some laundry a fews days back ! But I somehow managed to do it all by myself! Yay!
Tho' I was after a plan to hand-wash all my clothes so as to prove my physical fitness to mummy !lol. . .The prime reason for these piles ! I supposed I could do all my works by my own once our servant aunti left our place for some medical reason her hubby had! She's not yet back home! I'm worried if my mom has sacked her from being home! :O I can't have any other reason for her vanishing into moonshine. . . I badly miss her since I'm asked to clean my room,wash my clothes ,make tea serve myself every single thing without an aid! :( Now,I need to stack my clothes well coiffed on my wardrobe! I can have no concern for I mostly dislike having a disarrayed wardrobe!

Lemme go back and start my work then! :)

Single Vs Married

2009-01-19T06:31:00.000-08:00

Hmm...

Well ,Its all about a conversation I had with my friend some days back!

Some of my friends are getting married and they are gearing up for a new life! Oops! The start of an entirely new-life...;-) hmm.. Well,
-One of 'em highly tensed about the things that is going to happen after marriage!
-Other one has a cool-cool attitude!
-Another one is already married and having the max fun out of it!

I could see different extremities for a single reason!

Why is it like one should get married to somebody? I have been asking to the one myself and my Amma for a reason why I should get married. This quest peeps up whenever she tries to poke me with a proposal of marriage! She thinks it 's for the security reasons for a girl can't stay single for womb-to-tomb!

It says Marriage is all about a man and his wife in their own world assuring their lives entailed to each other! AGREED! But to an extent I kinda dissent such opinions-Our marriage strategy ! A man in some other part of the globe is going to be the biggest part in her life from the day he knots the 'Thalli' ! I can't admit the whole idea tho' I personally have no other choice but to gulp the traditional strategy! huh!

Meanwhile, one of my friends suggested to gain a new strategy- "Date-For-A-Year"! I agreed it a good idea! But failed to derive his seriousness in the topic ... I gave up! Moreover I am not liking to get married to anyone... Instead I 'd love to stay Single! Stay Single, it helps you learn a lot more things... Not very practical I know and myself waiting for him... ;-) Yes, it's really interesting to share everything with , to fight with, to play with..

New Experiences!

Lol.....

A-Post-A-Day !

2009-01-17T15:36:00.000-08:00

Time : 4AM

Woke up to the sound of my mob-alarm !Oh i have that bloody stupid University exam...Not that i hate writing exams ..it's just another fun where we can put all the follies in prescribed papers! Going to start my lessons before dawn! I being a s7 Engineering student, one shouldn't expect me to learn or rather grab studying-stuffs from the day before exam!Yep! The things are rather growing faster.. The-day-before-study has been turned to The- last-minute-study strategy! I started reading from one end trying to find a reason why in this world did i waste my money on taking the photostat of the whole book!Oops! I read the things in a sleepy-headed mode!

Time : 8AM

Oh !It's high time and i need to get ready or else i might miss my col bus! I've just run through the first module..Was that enough for the exam? Having no idea about the things going around i started out my readyings!

Time: 8.30

In a hurry to catch my col bus..Seeing Austin(my neigh kid) on my way , reminded something..Oh! it was a saturday and there wouldn't be any col bus !Way back to home! My father offered me a lift college since he and she planning to head themselves to her native! I was rather happy since i could get time to read more till i reach my college! But my beauteous amma herself needed more time to get leaving! Oh i couldn't be in time for the exam if i planning to wait for her ..and what is more i need to get my request signed before the exam since I've lost my hall-ticket! :( At last my father settled the problem by dropping me off in scooty !All my dreams were crushed into futility!

Time :9.15Am

I'm at college running towards the office to get my request signed ..After a talk with the principal i got everything right! and me led myself to the exam hall!I was drawing a blank then! Praying (rather begging) to the Lord to give enough power so that some miracle would happen and i could write things on paper even if the questions seemed to be so obscured!Sigh!

Time :12.25Pm

I knotted my papers with an excessive complacency since i somehow managed to drop lines for almost all the questions! tho' i haven't written anything from those photocopies ! An immencegas-work !

Time : 1.30Pm

Till in college chit-chatting with friends ,playing pranks with each other and the phone started pinging! It was my sister asking me to be at home within a short while so that i could save her from the state of heavy boredom!hehe...

Time : 3Pm

Reached home ...Had food...Had some chats with sis...Tried to pull her out but couldn't help failing this time too ..That usually happens! She loves herself to wear the crown of every fights she has(d/ving) with me!lol.. The fun went on till our parents arrived..

Time :6Pm

They are in now!Saawan seemed to be the happiest and out of action for he could go outing with his grandparents ! I had a groovy time with him! Neigh uncles came in to inform us about the NEW YEAR jubilation!Finally the high-ups(!) are free from their obligations! It's on JAN 23!Wowy!! i love being foodie now and then ! ;-) I can have ice-cream galore! wowy! waiting for 23rd eventide! :-D

Time : 10.30Pm

Yeah! I'm online now! lol..Making up my mind to set out for a new idea! A-post-a-day! which simply recalls the old self-possession i used to have in my schooldays!

Goodnight ya! :)

Welcome 2009 !

2008-12-27T21:15:00.000-08:00

Another year has come with more resolutions unlike the previous years!I can assure that I'm planning myself to change a lot!loll...But I tell you it's a loyal decision! ! I even marveled at the abrupt changes in me! I've started learning VEENA and planning to learn VIOLIN as well..Then I've decided to go for higher studies so that I can amend my career to a great run! Oh yeah! I'll be preparing for GRE and as a part of it I have put on a new habit !Started READING BOOKS, one of my dreams come TRUE ! Yipe!But this is not for the first time I'm trying to read a book.I've tried many a times before but sadly I couldn't finish reading a single one!:( Hope it won't be the same this time..Started with CRISIS by ROBIN COOK!I hope this 2009 is going to be a special year for me! I'm 21 now ! Crucial time for a girl ;-) !

Now then its time to say Good bye 2008! A year which has come across so many new good-bad experiences in life! I've gone through most of the faces in life starting from new friends(Hmm...at last managed to get a couple of friends at college from my batch mates ,seniors,juniors...!Some went good and stay still and some others were an err in life !), Outings, Dance (Yeah! A choreography done by me and my friends which turned out to be a success and moreover I've designed our very own costumes and I proudly proved myself to be a successful DESIGNER ! Many have started copying my design but they got a nice tailor unlike us! :( ! ) , new crazy doings like annoying teachers (Well its not a new thing for me since I used to be the naughtiest among friends from my Kindergarten and been a big trouble to all my friends and teachers!loll...Simply used to enjoy such things at school but never at college! Oh Gawd ! Such kinda Undesirable worries! ), then a secret crush (Somehow the guy managed to get into my crush-list! :D Oh let me add on - When I said CRUSH, I mean it! Well, I don't need to give explanations on it.. Everything is so clear as I see hardly any chance it grows ripe..lol...I killed it the moment the news spreaded up... :-( A mix of happy-unhappy feeling.),then veena ,higher studies plan,a blog as well :D ! The list goes on and on ... A big Thanks to 2008 for the newer counts !

I'm getting ready to gain a new jump....;-) I wish I won't repeat the same mistakes again in life! Oh! Life would be boring with the same old mistakes and occurrents ! Expecting to hap something very new..... ;-)

Maa....

2008-10-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

Ma,U taught me to LOVE others..
U taught me to RESPECT others..
U taught me all the goods things about life...
U give me self-confidence and I wear it with pride

I know u care for me and ur dedicated life for me...
I know U love me more than anything in this world...
But ma dont u feel missing something in our life ??
Yes ma,I miss u and I need u to take care of me ..
And i know we both miss each other a lott...

You dont talk to me nowadays...
Sometimes u dont listen to me...
It hurts to see that u coudnt find time to spare with me..
I know u have spent many sleepless nights to make me sleep..
I know u are there to cry for me and laugh for me...
But ma, do you see me crying now ??
I'm crying for your love,your care,your everything...
You are always busy with your work...
I try to understand the situation that we're in..
And you want me to be happy always...
But I cant be happy without you ...

I made a secure place myself in ur arms..
And I wish I were held tight in ur arms...
But I know you are lazy to keep me with you..
Were I an unwanted child for u ma ??
I know I'm in your thoughts and your love follows me everywhere...
I know you are there to brighten my life..
I love you with all my heart...

I feel a stifling pain inside..
My heart is crying again full of tears...
I know U cant bear to see me crying...
Of all the things I have, ur expression is the most important...
Thence writing these words in rain...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Cant help it mamma !!! :|

Attraction...

2008-10-04T08:33:00.000-07:00

What actually is an attraction ? Does anybody have an explanation for it? Does it mean a mere physical attraction or the attraction to the quality ? Why is it like teenagers are more likely to have such attraction ? And if,why are we attracted to the opposite gender? Of course there are homophiles! But still the former is more natural and common... Certain things can't be explained..That is how the nature and the life is made of !

If I try to call up such attractions or people to whom I get attracted in my life, I might get stunned ! 'Attracted' to many ones till this day with unique specialities! One had a wonderful smile which is my all time weakness .. Another one had a radical character...Another had a good ATTITUDE etc.. :D When I say Attraction, I mean it... just a mere attraction..

One cant slip his/her FIRST affection...and I take it !! I had such first attraction during my 8th grade...Some 'X' .... A tall,fair,cute looking guy!! I don't remember what exactly his name is..ahh!!! Does it matter ?? A name can nothing to do with,neh ... ;) But yes, he was cute and so I was attracted.. lol... A 13 year old kid's fun.. Haven't with me any details of him as an 8th grade girl had hardly any source to run down such details and there weren't any orkuts ...I hardly had talked to him except for 3-4 times asking for some dizzy things..Neither do myself interested in... But sometimes I found him noticing me which turned my focus to the one myself...

Me being me,have some principles in life..The one who doesn't believe falling in pass time love... I at times get irritated for others having such crap relations, letting their parents and dear ones go..but some other times I really miss for not having any LOVE , AFFAIR or whateva you call it..Truism !! I haven't yet fallen in the so called deep love with ... May be I'm less romantic..or is it cuz I give less value to such fantasies? But I fairly liked him and too he...

Donno how many admit this -- Eyes truly got such sorcerous power over life!!
It affects greatly the formation and the nature of human relationships...
We had merely a countably few meetings ,but would never forget to pass messages through the most natural way but without letting others knew what our intention was....That was the most interesting part ! Nobody had a single clue ... Not even my close friends.. Neither did I.. lol.. I was asked to put down the curtain to un-open the stage ..It was high time to wind up everything and we said bye to each other (All these happened in dreams.. Every thing was so quick..lol)..But surprisingly I met him after 2 years from my 8th grade in a scientific fair competition...I was as if waiting for sucha moment...and I could read from his face the happiness and breathtaking expressions(let it be..lol) ! A 5 mins talk ...he was merely replying to me ...Sadly he dint ask me a single thing! We said bye for the last time which was the closing phase of an unsuccessful desire - MY FIRST LOVE (?)..! That was the last meet --The End of Something...

I was a kid .. Is it more like a CRUSH at least? No idea ! And of co, I've exaggerated things here to add masala mix..Especially the 'EYE' part... I'd the same vision(Short sight) prob then too...lol..

The pond!

2008-10-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

The real Mystic!!

Very recently I came to know about a historic pond at trivandrum -- HYMAVATHY POND , a place where a lot of people fall into love and water !!

Experiencing the real life ghostly Hymavathy in a well haunted area...Its a very old story!!but there have been many experienced ones even in this 21c !! speciallly technopark employees who use the technopark back gate road...there have been many articles relating to this pond..Its is a real scray to one like me :D The story is all about a girl who committed suicide earlier in 1960s cuz her parents denied her marriage and killed her lover knowing their relation following she commited suicide in the pond and thereafter the pond is named "Hymavathi pond"...(Thanx to pradeep for these photos :))

One among such spiritual experience....

" I work for a private firm in Technopark. Due to some work yesterday, I was held back and my return home was delayed.

Around 9:30pm, I started from office on my scooter and passed through the back entrance road (Karyavatom - Thripadapuram road). I chose this road b’cos it was recently tarred and was a better and smoother road and I was afraid of taking the Kazhakootam road due to fear of hooligan activities that had occured recently.

As soon as I passed out of the back entrance, a jeep hurried towards me from the opposite side and applied brakes suddenly. Luckily I could maintain my balance and was not thrown out from my scooty.

When I crossed the first hump on the road, the current went out and it was completely dark. There were no lights from the nearby houses and the silence coupled with the cloudy atmosphere added to the fiery night. The little light in my scooty helped me propel to my target. I accelerated my vehicle. Suddenly I noticed something moving in front of me some few meters away, somewhere near to the right turn in the road. I applied the brakes of my vehicle as it turned out to be a completely strange thing. It had the height of 2 persons mounted on each other and was fatter than a normal person. A dark blanket covered the whole ‘thing’ and it was moving (floating) towards the University road. As soon as the thing went out of sight, I rushed away on my vehicle with little life in my body..."

Kariavattom roadway ...

Many have different experiences ..but everytime they see the same gigantic figure lined as above..Now have a close look at the pic...Chill out... lol...

But we cant neglect such cuts ..Some articles admit this scary creatures and there are some scientific reasons for this...It can be seen only when the vibrations of such creatures interfere with that of human beings... Only then one can feel their presence ! They may not appear all the time..But needs to hold all necessery environments!! If we believe in energy and science then we should take this... There are some negative energy existing in nature..And this is a kinda one..But,these creatures cannot do any harm to anybody as they haven’t any power to attack the living ones...They can be seen just as floating bodies or sometimes they may be dancing fogs.. ;)

Should 'I' admit this? I have no clue !!
but IT IS really SCARY !

Lovee...

2008-09-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

A feeling...
Deep inside my heart...
My thirsty heart awaiting for ur love...
Waiting like mad for the classics of love...
Ohh My Heart fell in love with you...
I wasn't planning on falling in love...
Or perhaps ur love for someone awakened the feelings inside me...

Secretly ,My Love deepens ....
I dont want to be your heavy burden in life...
I dont ask you to love me..
But I cherish that hope in my heart...

I will keep my eyes from shining when they see you...
But sometimes my spying eyes cared for your attention..
But I need an explanation for what my heart says...
I know my love for you deepens as the days passes...
Words fail when I try to express my feelings for you...

But I don't have much time to waste on you ...
For my own sanity, I need to close the phase
And walk away...
I cant be in true love ....
Oh...

But I'm waiting for you ...
Waiting for the day you come for me....
Hoping to get the beats of love.... ;)

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Certain things would touch our heart and may sometimes end up with creative thoughts..And this is a kinda such evolution.. I can't point a special someone as I lack it !!I know My heart is pure as a candle light but I call my mind a complicated one!! This time thanks to one particular person whose aspiration turned out to be my debut commital to writing...IMAGINATION as it is... ;-)

Poetic ....

2008-09-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

Another day gonna end ...but somebody wanted to make it in a more special way and gifted ~~ A poetic or musical penning ....

Flowin r TEar$ Of BLooD
From a BrokEn HEarT...
But $T!LL...
ThE FLowEr !$ 4 U Ma SwEET HEarT...

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Roses were red...
But they all went dead...
Back to square one again…
Aftermath of the the lost paradise,
Goes back to cold heartedness…
Fell Down Deep in the Abyss…
Felled not by foe but by fate…
Back to where it all began….

But still the tiny flicker of hope,
Remains in ma heart…

Like ma name suggests…
A cursed soul that I am,
With all the Luck in Life…
Except when it matters the most…
Except when it mattered the most…
The “Paradise is Lost” for The COUNT…

LOST The GAME...n
I Call It " QUITS "

~~ GAME OVER ~~

actually i dnno why i'm asked to read this composition ...may be he wanted to show his poetic skill ...lolll....But Marvellous!!

Industrial trip...

2008-09-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

Yeh guyss...we visited Trivandrum TECHNO PARK as a part of Industrial trip...it was another normal Visit with presentations and stuffs the same as most companies follow !! This was INFOCEANS.... still i lack the details of the company...No no...wasnt a boring session..But informative..me being an impatient one, got irritated at times as they started the ppt by 11 and made us wait for a loong 1 hour and most of us started sleeping by the time.. and others throwing gems on a pair... ;)
but once the SHOW has begun,v started listening ... Sir challenged us to write a program in C which prints itself ..but without FILES!!!I would probably find the solution for it...Thanks to GOOGLE and other engines...The talk ended by 1.30 in the afternun and was really impressive ..bt couldnt listen more for i was too hungry... ^_^
and then came our fav luncheon :D

We have been to technopark for the first time..probably we would be searching for a good food court there and the sir led us to 7th floor...i dint waste time on hearing his conversation but started pinging my sis over phone...and thank god she was working in the same building...we had a delicious luncheon....veg biriyani+ icecreamzzz + blackforest + choco vannilla dip....yummy!!!

OMG!! forgot to tell u something..we have met sooooo many seniors and even our old teachers there..yeh i mean SCTians...and one senior even remarked something on it ~~ "Many SCTians around.... :O "
well we wernt the expected ones there...so had too see many curious faces!! lol...even i were dismayed at times on seeing some familiar old faces....sigh...

I dont hav much to tell about the afternun session...Another sir came in..He tried atmost to hear him...uuufff!!! I tried hard but i think he understood as we cant fool the HR persons!!!They are highly intellectual ones !! lol...He teached us how to create a webpage using WSS (Windows Sharepoint Services !!) ...The idea was totally a new one!!but still cant bear the whole longgg session...Sorry Sir coudnt listen much!!

They wound up the session by 4.30 ...The most likely thing was the coffee they shared !! Strooong coffee i say!!i loved it ...had 3 ...2 in the morn (thanxx to shreya for the extra 1 :D) and 1 afternoon..( 3=2+1 ) ^_^

hmmm.....today i realised something about my seniors locutions...~~ "u would noe the value of ur college only once u get out of it and its gr88 being a part of college"....i have no clue about how me gonna manage sucha software sysytem where ppl have to sit in front of a system trying for all sorts of coding ,testing and all blahss...But myself not placed yet ..Can think of it neh...loll...i truly at times think of my old wish!!! PSYCHOLOGY !!
hmmm.....i would have been a good PSYCHIATRIST once !!!but cant think of being a PROGRAMMER !! Neither do i think i can manage with a programmer!!! if god ever gives me a chance to select my partner..S/w souls are least preferred!! :D.....

A tricky one !!

2008-09-15T01:15:00.000-07:00

Recently i came to know about a C program without 'main'
itz so tricky and very interesting....

#include "stdio.h"
#define decode(n,s,u,t) n##t##u##s
#define begin decode(m,n,i,a)

int begin()
{
printf(" \nhello ");
getch();
}

where ' ## ' --> token pasting operator for concatinating words...
see a tricky one rite..

Hidden Mystic !!

2008-05-27T07:54:00.000-07:00

Today eve while I was(as usual) sitting nothing but irritating saawan and playing with him,my mobile starts pinging.A message from a stranger (alien I should call...) !

"Never be sad if anyone doesnt recognize your worth.Its there loss and your gain bcoz people who dont appreciate your true worth dont deserve to know u..."

Yet do I marvel??

I have been seriously in such kinda troubles for last few days and still...He {Well jez for my sake..the one who sent be a man rather than a woman... ;-) } might have misplaced my number for any other one.Or is it somebody who really cares me??Sometimes its good to have such belief ~~ Somebody somewhere is awaiting !!!When am I going to bump the one then ? Waiting waiting.... :-P

I-Me-Myself !!

2008-05-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

I or who ??

Perhaps many of us might have thought of such a query atleast for once in life time..

I do most often!!!Am I a passionate one? brave ?loyal? tenacious?I have no clue !! Dint mean I'm trying to resolve it...But certain words would touch our heart..This is one of a kind.....

"You can say whatever you want as u Please..
But I am What I am
I've always been real and true!
And that is something that you can never be...."

This is life.. Well we need to go deep into it...lol...

INTRO....

2008-05-25T08:08:00.001-07:00

A trivial blah!

Our semester-break(or play-days) started. . . I have nothing to do other than feel terribly bored and lazy which made me think of something doable-- The root of The-Positivist-Tribune . . . Hope it will be highly beneficial in near future ! At least I didn't go waste time outta blabbing out with someone.. After all, blogs are meant to be the second crapiest thing in the world , the first being self. . blah blahs! lol. . .