Surreal.. but nice !

I want a world were anything is possible...!

What I want to be... ? was left to me...

Choices were actually minuscule..
I picked one, But went wrong..

I see myself as a failure !
Believe me, I'm going to fail just 100%...
A striker striking within its reach,but failing to put a coin in the pocket..
Don't tell me ,it doesn't matter..
Because I know, it DOES !

This is not the time for incidence
This is not the time for empathize

I must complain with the weakest possible reason I could have....
I'm unsure, but something hiding me..
Perhaps, I'm less confident about myself..
I'm lazy, I couldn't make it... What shall I do now?
I thought I'm old enough to take my own decisions..
I thought there is no harm to be myself..
Did you see the difference?
Oh well,Its all about a lonely person in the world....
I doubt if its me....
No, I've everybody..


They asked :

Good bowler / Bad bowler ?

Unsure! I picked Good . But it turned Bad...

I'm a traveler who is gonna discover the world..
Looking for the day which is going to change my life...
If I was given a chance ,I'd change the world upside down..

Surreal.. but nice!
Well, what was I thinking about? Is it about changing the world?
I'm dreaming then..
In dreams, I'd change the entire world rather than my personality..
Because you can always do that in your dreams...
Sleep with a dream and wake up with reality ..
Because there is nothing that rhymes in life ...
I fancy it... Surreal ,but nice!

I wanted to see you smile..
But, nobody wished for mine..
I've got nothing to smile about !
Still I smiled, but nobody noticed..

Combination of factors spilled it out :

No clean clothes
No regular food
No real friends
No entertaining fun

Somebody been badly influenced...
Everything Unfit..
Everything for a reason it says :
Get me the reason, I'll be excused !

Unsuccessfully Professional !

A fairly strange reality to face with..
Its a No-Win situation..I dint realize before..
I couldn't hear the spiritual vibrations anymore....

Fortune....

My fortune teller says :

"Everyone is gifted - but some people never open their package"

Searching for my gift.....
.
Can't find any.....
.
Mission failed....
.
Query : Will I get a new one?
Reason : Because that I've missed my old...
Response : Gift once lost is lost forever !


Scripting failed . . . .

Write up...

Narrating a story . . .

11th grade Math tuition : The journey begins ... I dint notice this tuition-mate of mine since the huge class and she wasn't in the circle of my world which was confined to the first 2 benches...

12th grade Math tuition : My neighbor introduced her best friend to me ... A cute gal I murmured ... Started noticing her from that day on .. Smiling friends as I would define it... A thought struck my mind : Keep Smiling n' she smiled ... :)

X'mas day celebration at my neighbor's home : I can at this moment see her awaiting for a quick and easy friendship .. From there own, Hi-Bye friends as we called it... :)

First year second day at college bus stop : We shared a Happy Smile! She is already my friend .. Now,I got a good companion too... :)

During the mid S12 : Many started echoing : 'Appu and Rakhi are best friends.' But, we dint actually know we were ... ;)

Second year college : We realized how good friends we are and started the real move...

Third year college : I shifted my home to a new one .. Wow, my heart can only take so much. . My mind echoed her name .. I'm her neigbour now .. For once in my life I realized I've someone who needs me and I want that someone to be in my life song ... She promised, she will .. She was with me when i missed my mind and kept her words ... I got someone I needed so long .. Yay!

We made a long commitment after college :

"Be friends"... "But we are friends."
No, We meant to BE friends ...

"If you ever need a hand, I'm here ..." - That was a promise we made in heart !

A journey at its best ...

A Warm Shake-hand !

Its says : Friendship is a promise made in heart !

. . . If you ever need a Hand, I am here . . .
. . . A promise Unbroken . . .

Cheers to all my friends for those lovely moments together!

BSNL Bad !

I messaged . . .

"Msg 1 : Hereafter, following the message sequencing method to ensure the acknowledgement :D so that the receiver could find the innocence of the sender who is being accused for not sending(replying to) the messages. . .:) :) "


I tried to send the same message thrice,but failed!
My good luck . . It worked after 10 hours- from the night to the next morning ! sigh

I waited for another half an hour to get a reply and here it is . . .

"Well, I think this new method of sequencing would be effective. .You may as you plz follow this method from today. . Cheers ! "

lol...I was happy! I found a new method. . Yay!

Well well...I'm following this new method from today morning.. But, not even a single message is getting delivered! If only it's been sent,one could make sure of my sequencing. .
Bsnl Bad again... :(

Sob sob! Somebody get me a new Network which can't be distracted by any other means!

I want an ' obedient ' Network which works just for a single person and that's ME . . See, how lovely it would be. . . ;) What if there exists a Remote Controlled Wireless Network (abbreviated as RCWN :D )! Whenever I wish for the network service , it's all DONE ! My destination is only a single click away! All others should have to wait for my permission to use this privately accessed network which I never do. . lol . . The possibilities are endless! Lets hope for one such system in Mobile Service!

But, RCWN has to be named after me for I suggested this possibility! But, unfortunately My name doesn't seem scientific ! :( It could have been Rachle / Rakshel / Rikshel or something . . Sigh! But, I love Malayalam . . Rachle / Rakshel / Rikshel could never be a Malayalee name . . . sad again. . .:(

Ambitions

Listing out my ambitions from the age of 9 -

Age- 9 , 4th Grade :
I wanted to become an IAS officer.


Since my mom's greatest wish !

Age-10, 5th Grade :
I decided...I'm the future Doctor.

For God's sake, I can never be a Doctor! I'd have been the same as above otherwise!

Age-13, 8th Grade :
Had enough of learning BIOLOGY! I hated the subject even before I go in depth!
Heard from my seniors about them experimenting the frogs, cockroaches etc..Argh!

Age-14, 9th Grade :
I'm a Teacher! Finalized ! Just because I fell in love with a teacher of mine, I wanted to be like her ...Realized better I not a teacher! lol...

Age-15, 10th Grade :
All I wanted is to get a pass mark . The first Board Examination in life!
I passed it! God's grace!:)

Age-16, 11th Grade :
I wanted to become a Psychiatrist! Because I love to read people's mind and wanted to find the reason behind the mad whirl of pleasure!


Unfortunately,none at home encouraged this idea! Can't blame them! A completely mad Psychiatrist aint valued. .

Age-17, 12th Grade :
I'd write the entrance and would get through . .

I'm the next Engineer. .

Age-18, 1st year Engineering :
I was liking to take Comp Sci & Eng. . I was told about the high salary and IT - The next generation sector . . .



Age-19 , 2nd year Engineering :
Wished for nothing! I just wanted to enjoy my college life . . .

La la laa.....

Age-20, 3rd year , The pre-final year :
Wanted to become something in life . But, was unsure about ' What? '--
Nothing wondering! Still the same situation.... :(

Age-21, Final year Engineering :
I'll be a lovely wife! Wanted to sit idle,doing nothing at all but running a wonderful family!




Now in the state of dilemma . . .
CAT ? Job ? Family ? Absolutely No Idea it is . . .

The Rarest of the Rare!

My eyes literally pinned to my books! I bet its an academic book! Neither magazine nor story book! Hard to find one such ikon! Keeping this remembrance as my personal favorite!




I never knew when this pic was taken!Cheers to my friends!
Me chained to books - that happens once in blue moon almost never happens !Remembering the day before final exam,S8 . Puzzling out one hardest topic! Nah, I gave up! Can't strain my eyes to learn something!lol...